The first page that really struck me was page four...page four! Kroeker is talking about how having a relationship with God is lacking - if it happens it isn't what you're looking for or maybe it gets passed by completely. "Or perhaps we want to be closer to God - we really want to - and just can't figure out how." Yeah - that's me. I WANT something more - I'm not sure how to get there. This book though has set me on a path to change that.
And then she listed my favorite verse...
"Be still, and know that I am God." (Psalm 46:10)A few weeks ago the leader of our praise team sang a song, "Still" by Hillsong and it struck a cord with me that was amazing. The song brought me to tears (and does every time I hear it). So with that song still in my heart, I read that verse and knew that this book was speaking to me! I struggle daily, hourly to have the relationship that I want with God. I want more than what I have and this book has set me on the path to make it better.
It took me two weeks to read this book. I could only read a few pages at a time as I had to sit and let what Kroeker said soak in and really mean something to me. She gave me so many ideas though - I'm putting that verse into a frame to set beside my bed so every morning when I wake up, that is what I see. I'm going to start a journal - that I can write it daily wherever I am to God to tell him what I'm thinking and feeling. I'm going to create an Ebenezer jar as a memorial to God's work in my life and my family's life.
And for now - that is all I'm doing. These few things are what Kroeker suggested trying in just the first half of the book. I can't do it all at once and if I try to, I know I'll fail. This is another one of those books that I want to buy so I can mark it up and takes notes and refer back to it as often as I want. This is going on my "list of books I want to buy" so when my birthday or Christmas rolls around, I can give a list to Brian so he has it easy.
With a lot of determination and dedication I'm going to walk more closely with God throughout my life.